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1月9日 well that's a horse of a different colorCurrent mood:
i realize this is a little late, but i have quite a few new year's resolutions. actually i guess it's not ever too late for improvement. to be more organized with school this semester. so sick of late night cramming only resulting in me not doing the best of my ability. to listen more than i speak. after all we have two ears and one mouth... that ought to tell us something. be healthier. i take in way too many soft drinks and tons of fast food. what can i say... i'm a college student. befriend someone that is not considered the ideal person to befriend. i'm actually already pretty good about this, but like i said... always room for improvement. wear what i want. not let petty things people who think they know me hurt my feelings. after all God made me the way i am for a reason. not treat my parents like an annoyance. i love my parents, but as with all parents, they get under my skin sometimes and i can get kinda disrespectful at times. that needs to stop...they've done and still do so much for me. go on a mission trip. stop the eye rolling. i am really horrible about this. you don't have to be around me long to figure out that my facial expressions are quite... vivid and expressive. the eye rolling has become an aweful habit and i need to stop. i hadn't really thought about it until one of my friends did it to me when they thought i wasn't looking a few weeks ago. it kinda hurt my feelings and i was like wait a minute.. i do that a lot. so yeah... that definitely needs to stop. accept God's will for my life this year even if it's not what i want or what i think i need. let people know how much i care for them before it's too late. not care what people think unless it is something that really is of importance. BE MORE POSITIVE. enough said.
i know i'll think of a million more, but this is what i have for now. thanks once again for tuning in. STAY CLASSY! heh
got my defenses when it comes to your intentions for me
1月6日 i'll become what you became to me...who really knows me? i mean deep down, really knows me. i don't think you do. alot of people think they know me because they're around me, but do they really? like katie, i love the stained glass masquerade song. i've never really cared much for casting crowns, but when i heard this song at the concert i immediately fell in love with it. there really is so much more to a person than meets the eye. while some people are born with the ability to tell when someone's hurting or see through someone's fake smile, most people cannot. this is a gift that i've started praying for recently. mostly because i've been going through a lot of stuff lately and i don't give anyone the chance to know because of the mask i put on... and when some one noticed that i was hurting and asked about it, it meant the world. not only did that person care that i was hurting, but they didn't just think i was complaining... they really truly listened. i have many friends who've claimed "i'm always here for you" or "anytime you need someone to talk to..." and so on, but how many times have they followed through with it? out of probably more than twenty people who've said it, only one has really meant it. if someone doesn't really mean it, i'd rather them not say it. if when i do come to you with a problem i'm having, it's because i need to get it off my chest and need someone's advice, not because i need somone to complain to. i hope that with God's help i can be the friend that i wish i had.... willing to listen.. really, truly listen. oh for a friend like God. one who: is willing to listen anytime does not roll their eyes when they think you're not looking does not say i told you so when you mess up does not act like their listening when they're not does not turn that information into gossip with their other friends is not simply a part-time friend still acts like a friend even when it's not convinent for them sticks closer than a brother
this isn't a complaining blog... this is a mission blog. it's my goal, as well as my mission to become the friend that i look for so earnestly... then maybe once i become that friend to others, they'll become what i became to them. Currently listening: Lifesong By Casting Crowns Release date: By 30 August, 2005 12月24日 good news, bad newsgood news, bad news
i just got back from seeing the chronicles of narnia. this movie is awesome. the symbolism in this movie is incredible.... this movie put some things into perspective for me and it kind of reminds me of how i felt right after the passion of christ, although narnia finished the rest of the story. everyone should see this movie, although anyone who isn't a christian might not understand its symbolism. there were so many things that happened during the movie and then i was like wow.. that meant this.. and so on. it's hard to believe that disney actually put this movie out, but i'm so grateful they did. during the movie, my dad got a phone call. a guy we work with at MTD had a heart attack and died last night. he was only about in his younger 40's and was in good shape... we both knew him well. my dad's taking it pretty hard. by something that he said, i can tell he's thinking that if this guy was his age and in shape that him not being in shape (well that's what he thinks) that he's... i don't know how to explain it, but you know what i mean. my dad's been going through alot lately... my whole family has. i'm not being selfish and talking about myself... my stuff is trivial and seems so mindless compared to this... but there's just been a lot of family stuff going on. he's down about his weight bc people jokingly make comments about it, but i can tell it really hurts his feelings as it rightfully should. i love my mom to death, but i've always been a daddy's girl... i love him so much and it just hurts me so badly to sit here and watch him hurt and know that there's nothing i can do about it... please keep my family in your prayers... there's a lot going on that i'm not allowed to talk about... thanks for "listening".... <3 Sierra.Jill
12月23日 don't know which to bury; us or the hatchetMy quirkiness seems to be increasing…. There is this “older gentleman” at work with his front teeth missing. I found myself thinking this morning that he pulls it off quite nicely. For some reason lately I’ve been pulling my hair into a ponytail everyday, which is weird cause I always wear it down. A “little birdie” in New York told me not to worry about some stuff my friends/“friends” (who the heck knows which one) were saying about me. Good advice, and I intend to do so. My coworker told me today they all think I’m the sweet, innocent type. Heh. once again i will say... I LOVE CHRISTMAStime.
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12月22日 the facts of lifewhen i point my finger at someone else, there is always three pointing back at me.
there are two sides to every story.
these are just two facts of life. 12月21日 ATTENTION: WE HAVE A THROAT CLEARER IN THE LOBBYmy world and other random thoughts ...
i miss my high school/youth friends... but things are just different now, like they've changed... or maybe i have...
i LOVE christmas time.. it just feels different than other holidays and times of the year.
i miss john. he's only been gone 4 days.. is that sad? maybe that's because he's the only person willing to hang out with me.. haha kidding.
i don't wanna grow up.
i wish that everyone (including myself) could figure out what is really important without having to go through something really tough. it seems that that's the only way we learn sometimes
for those of you who don't already know, i once got a tic tac stuck up my nose trying to make it "dissappear".. man that burned.
i hate it when a common and easy to spell word just doesn't look right and you just sit there for a while trying to figure out if that's how it's really spelled...
I WANT SNOW!!!!!!!
my cousin lillianne once flushed her cat down the toilet. i know what you are thinking. but it' was small and didn't meow very loud.
i love the fact that i feel comfortable enough with myself that i can change my hair color alot. it's big fun.
I hate it when you specifically ask someone not to do something because it'd make you uncomfortable and it'd cause no trouble for them not to, but they do it anyways.. i had one of these experiences this past weekend.
I love reading people that i don't know very well's blogs.. it makes me feel like i know them and can relate to them.
i HATE labeling 1200 notecards with annoying sticky labels asking employees if they want a turkey or ham for christmas. BOOOORING. and tomorrow i have to staple all of them to every single check. big fun. yay for sierra.
i HEART katie's new car. oh so jealous
my brother from nashville is coming in for christmas today and my brother from miami should be rolling in sunday... i can't wait.... it'll be sooooo much fun.
yellular people drive me crazy, but they're EVERYWHERE! (yellular people= people who think they need to yell for the person on the other end of the cell phone to hear them)
i felt soo special today. i went to eat lunch with my dad in the cafeteria bc it was christmas lunch day .. anywho.. i went to get my tea.. and who was serving? EMILY! hehe. it was good to see her. she brightened my day.
if you sprinkle when you tinkle, be a sweetie, wipe the seatie. GAH. why does no one follow this rule???
deep fried turkey is DA BOMB!
sierra misses heather. heather works too much. this makes sierra sad.
one of my friends who is going out of town for christmas (*lucky*) offered to let me use his nano (little ipod) while he's gone. we always discuss music and he wanted me to hear a few bands.. i went and got it today, gave him a mixed cd of "my bands". so i'll have it for about a week. sweet deal
occasionally feel the need to talk like yoda, i do. (if you didn't catch that, don't even bother asking)
man, i wish a turkey would hop out of my christmas present box.... haha.
i wasn't one to play with dolls when i was little, but i do remember one i particularly liked, tho. cupcake dolls... they were so cute. they folded into a cupcake.. (their skirt was the cupcake "wrapper").. man i wish i still had one...
i hate how loud i am sometimes.
i have had to pee for 3 hours. you prolly didn't wanna know that. too bad
i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE target. target rocks.
i'm in college --->which means i'm broke---> which means you'll either get no present, or a really small one. sorry, but that's all i gots. oh... and a hug. you can have a hug, too.
i want to go to extreme so bad. if God does too, then i will go. if He doesn't, i shouldn't even wanna go.
i got a new phone! after two longs years of being dropped, thrown, dropped in the toilet twice, and every other thing imaginable, it was about time to retire the poor thing. i got it for christmas by the way, but couldn't wait bc my phone was so messed up.
taste the rainbow.. ha ha *the rainbow is very pretty, might i add*
i'm working 7:30-3:30 the rest of the week.. so i showed up at 7:30 this morning and there was a guy already in the lobby.. standing, waiting there. i was slightly annoyed because of this for no reason other than it was 7:30 and I had gone to bed at 3 last night so i REALLY didn't wanna be there.. anyways he obviously was there to see someone and wanted me to get a hold of him... he was in the lobby a total of 4 minutes and did the annoying throat clearing thing 8 times! grrr... haha... it was HORRIBLE
i will willingly admit i am silly and sometimes down right stupid.
well... i'll stop blabbing random junk that means nothing. felt like writing, but at least it wasn't too depressing. i couldn't do that... it's christmas! let's all do a snow dance and hope for the best!!!
12月19日 lock me up and throw away the key...Current mood:  sympathetic Category: Blogging
Sometimes I feel like I'm on survivor. The people get on the island and they all get along at first, but then things go wrong and paranoia sets in. Suddenly everyone thinks that every whispered conversation is about them and that they're about to be voted out. This is how I feel sometimes. I get extremely confused over if things that are said (or wrote) are actually about me, or if it's just exactly that... paranoia. While I get along with most people, some people just seem to not want to give me a chance or the benefit of the doubt. There's certainly people I'd rather be around more than other people, but this doesn't mean that I should be mean or rude to the people who's company I'd less prefer. I've noticed a lot of people around me don't like to be around certain people, so they think that's a good excuse to treat them like they're stupid or beneath them... well that's not a good excuse. In fact, there's never a good excuse for that. Plus, that's based on an opinion.... Some people may actually love that person's company. I hate it when one person in a clique doesn't like one person and then the rest of the people in that clique think they can't like that person either just because the other person didn't. I mean c'mon. How silly is that? What happened to thinking for yourself... being an individual... anti-conformity. Those are beautiful things... not everyone else in the world can have those things. I was really surprised when I got to college and people still acted like this. People in college are supposed to be more mature.. ha ha. Nothing is ever as it appears at first, I don't guess. I hate it when people mistake niceness for two-facedness (haha i don't think that's a word). There are people that truly get on my nerves, but I'm nice to them anyways because that is what I'm supposed to do. But I do not think this qualifies as being two-faced at all. After all, it's MY fault that they get on my nerves because I let it get to me when my emotions are something I should have control over. But talking about someone does bring it to the next level and definitely could be called being two-faced... just make sure not to confuse the two. Katie.. just in case you were wondering, this isn't about you at all... your blog just sparked my thinking and I had to write about it. Well I'll stop rambling now... I'm actually in quite a good mood... hope you (whoever you are who is reading this) have a good day!
12月16日 not exactly a ray of sunshine today...
i'm in somewhat of a bad mood. i just looked at my final grades and my GPA for this semester is 3.23. I know that's not that bad, but my computer teacher is a moron. It's the one who accused me of cheating on an ONLINE Excel Test. I'm not going there... But anyways... she left off some grades like I didn't turn in some projects or something and it lowered my grade from an A to a B. They were turned in.. and on time, so I'm extremely annoyed. So I tried to email her to fix things, but her email address isn't working... I keep getting failure of delivery notices. So I guess there's nothing I can do except to take a grade lower than I deserve. That really sucks and it's gonna bug the crap out of me. grrr... I'm just in a bad mood now. Everyone is seeming to annoy me and I'm at work and the phone won't stop ringing... I need help!!! Sorry to complain... just needed to get it all out... maybe I'll write a "happy blog" later... maybe 12月11日 imperfectionsCurrent mood: saddened by other people that i REALLY care about
have you ever felt like God didn't want you to do something because the door was closed to it and you thought that was God trying to tell you that by doing so... but then he opened the door again and you thought that you should? this happens to me. not because God changes his mind, but because I'm not perfect and I don't always understand what he's trying to tell me. I had prayed about something earlier and thought I shouldn't do it.. but I kept praying about it and now I see things differently. and now i'm being criticized for it. i don't really understand that. Some people may understand everything God tells them every time He tells them, but that's not how it works with me. I'm imperfect and that's just how it is and how it will stay. so to those who think badly of me for it, i'm sorry.... i have imperfections just like you
12月10日 beautiful disasterbeautiful disaster
**I filled this out a couple of days ago...** ***And I don't know why there's a bunch of numbers missing...*** 1. spell your first name backwards: arreis 2. Story behind your myspace name: I’m tired of getting my heart hurt and I need to start standing up for myself instead of letting people walk all over me 3. How old are you: 19 4. Where do you live: you know.. with my parents DESCRIBE YOUR: 5. Wallet: don’t have one 7. Toothbrush: a purple electric one 8. Jewelry worn daily: thumb ring, another ring with 3 hearts on it, and 2 sets of earrings 13. Sunglasses: over-sized green ones (you can see em in some of my pics) 14. Favorite shirt: hmmm.. that’s tough.. prolly my brown new york city sweatshirt or my black tank top 15. Favorite pants: some baggy, boyish looking khaki colored ones with a bicycle oil stain on the bottom and my FAVORITE jeans that I have 2 pairs of even though they look exactly alike. 16. CD in stereo right now: it’s a cd changer so there’s a few.. killers, franz ferdinand, yellowcard, all-american rejects, jimmy eat world, and fall out boy. Lovely lil mix if I do say so myself 17. Piercings: just two sets in my ears.. but a tongue ring soon hopefully… 18. What you are wearing now: red sweater, scarf, jeans, and a smile J 19. Wishing: to make good grades on my finals and that it would snow! 20. Wanting: a pink electric guitar and to be somewhere other than work… 21. After this: finish stapling things to people’s checks while I answer the phone some more and study for my two finals while doing so 22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone who would it be? Probably spongebob. Yeah... definitely spongebob. Otherwise I don’t dislike anyone that much lol. 23. Person(s) you wish you could see right now: ah, wouldn’t you like to know. Honestly my dad… he’s on a business trip and I miss him. 24. Something you’re looking forward to that’s coming up: the holidays… it means family and food, which I haven’t been getting enough of lately 25. Something you're looking forward to in the coming week: being done with school for a while and having a nice, long break… going to Santa’s village and hopefully playing me some halo Saturday night for the last time before everyone leaves town for break. 26. The last thing you ate: wow… I can’t remember. I was supposed to eat last night, but I ended up not… so the last time was at lunch yesterday… half a peanut butter sandwhich. That’s sad. (our microwave’s not working and basically everything I usually eat at home is done in the microwave) 27. Something you are moderately afraid of: spiders (and not really moderately… extremely is more like it. And I hate being in crowded or small spaces. 30. Do you like the taste of blood? ewe. No. do some people actually like it?? 31. Do you believe in love? I’m not sure anymore. Well I guess I do.. just not the “perfect ideal” love that everyone talks about. 32. Do you believe in soul mates? I definitely think that certain people are supposed to be together. While we’re on that subject… people need to realize God has a plan and whether they like those two people being together or not, it is what it is. There’s a reason for everything and I personally wouldn’t want to go against his will because of my own selfish wants. I guess the people who’re guilty of this don’t think of it that way, but maybe they should. 33. Do you believe in love at first sight? That’s called something else… 35. Do you believe in God? definitely 38. What is the longest you've ever stayed up? About 2 days 44. Who is someone that you really wish was still around? my Nanny. I miss her everyday. And Case. Definitely Case. RELATIONSHIPS: 45. Who are your best friends? That’s tough bc it’s kinda shifted lately bc of people’s attitudes… but I guess I would have to say emily, kayla, heather, dustin, jacob c, john, jacob r, katie, and ashley are on up there 47. Are you shy around them? Sometimes I’m not as talkative, but I’m pretty much always myself 49. Do you know what it feels like to be in love? yes 50. Would you sacrifice your favorite possession for your best friends? in a heartbeat FASHION STUFF: 51. Where is your favorite place to shop? Brands don’t really matter. If I like it, I like it. I can’t wait to go to new york and tear the shops up there tho.. that’ll be fire 52. Have any tattoos? nope 61. Do you do drugs? Not unless you count perscription 64. What are you listening to right now? Fox news, fork lifts honking, me typing 65. Who was the last person that called you? John 66. Where do you want to get married? Um… outside is all I know 68. What would you change about yourself? That I didn’t view myself so negatively bc it’s effected my relationships with others.. that and I assume too much 69. What are essentials in your life? God, family, and friends. That sounded so by the book, but it was an honest answer CURRENT: 71. Hair: kinda long, blonde (kinda golden, NOT bleached) and I did have it really dark brown underneath, but it’s faded a lot so it’s kinda dark blonde. 72. make-up: barely any besides eye make up. I go church and other places without make up on (well I just eyeliner) all the time and ppl don’t usually notice so.. yeah 73. music: wishing I was listening to jack’s mannequin 74. mood: a little grumpy bc I have a pounding headache, but optimistic that my day will get better
12月7日 stab my back, it's better when i bleed for you*i hate it when you spill your heart out to someone only to find that they don't care...*
12月5日 ...what's that cologne you're wearing? it's gasoline...well it smells greatToday and this past weekend have been really interesting.
I realized today that I don’t know proper funeral etiquette. I was behind a funeral procession in Milan and it was a four-lane… I wasn’t sure what to do. Eventually, I ended up passing them, which seemed kinda rude, but then again if I was someone with them, I wouldn’t care. Who knows.
I broke an egg on the floor while making cupcakes.
My boyfriend and I had our first “conflict of interest” Saturday night.
I realized how quickly God can work when we ask. I prayed about something at church… Someone had been mad at me and I had already asked their forgiveness, but they weren’t going to accept it… it had been a while, but I hadn’t taken it to God. How very stupid of me. When I finally did bring it to Him… only hours later that night, that person not only told me they accepted my apology, but also apologized for what they had done. It’s a shame how stubborn I am before I break down sometimes.
I realized how petty some people are.
It amazes me how some people bully people and don’t think anything about it. In fact, the people around them laugh like it’s funny. Intentionally calling people out and treating people like they’re not as good as you really bugs me. Maybe those people need to listen to “Hero” by Superchic[k] and see what it can do to people…
someone told me they wouldn't do something again because it hurt me. they did it again tonight.
This week is finals and I CAN’T wait for them to be over. Off school for a whole month... WOOHOO!!
I realized that friendships mean more to me than they seem to other people.
I’ve continually tried to do something with one of my friends and it never works out on her end. I don’t know if I did something or if it’s just a coincidence.
I can’t complain about my grades. For once I think I got a better grade than I deserved on a paper I wrote. I got a B, but I was being lazy and it was some of the worst work I’ve ever done. Even though she’s my least favorite teacher, I’m very grateful.
I’ve always wondered why they change great to grateful….
My things to do before i die list continues to grow while my time here decreases.
I sit here in amazement as I think of how God is still here waiting for me now matter how much I screw up.
there WILL be beauty from pain...
11月29日 * top eight *MYspace top eight!
1 - Heather Tyson 2 - Jamie Matheny 3 - Rachel Blankenship 4 - Ashley Holland 5 - Katie Sanders 6 - Kelly McDonald 7 - Case Thornton 8 - John Horn * * * * * * * * * * * * *
1. Is number 3 your best friend? one of them :)
2. 3 Words to Describe number 7? wal mart manager (haha), awesome, one of a kind
3. Have you ever lied to number 4? course not
4. Do you know a secret about number 7? um... not really
5. Describe the relationship between # 4 and # 7. they're friends... and he likes her "curvaceousness" haha
6. What is the best thing about number 3? she's a good listener and always makes me feel better when i talk to her about stuff
7. What is the worst thing about number 1? she doesn't realize how beautiful and amazing she is
8. When was the last time you saw number 3? sunday morning
9. Describe the relationship between number 5 and number 8? um.. i don't think they really know each other besides maybe know who the other one is... i dunno
10. Have you ever danced with number 7? case? yup :) many times
11. How long have you known number 4? probably about a year and a half-ish
12. Have number 3 and number 7 ever dated? rachel and case? haha no.. that'd be a funny site to see
13. Have you ever done drugs with number 6? nope.. not number 6 or anyone else for that matter
14. Have you ever been in a fight with number 8? me and john? of course not.. unless you count thumb wars lol
15. Do number 1 and number 2 like each other? i don't think jamie and heather know each other..
16. Does number 2 have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yup he sure does.. that's prolly why he doesn't talk to me anymore.. traitor... :P kidding
17. Have you ever been a co-worker with number 8? nope.. i wish.. then my job would be fun
18. Have you ever wanted to punch number 2 in the face? Haha.. not really. no in fact, not at all
19. Has number 1 ever met your mother? yup
20. Have you ever been on vacation with number 5? nope... but that'd be fun
21. Has number 7 ever seen you naked? course not!!
22. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt number 3? umm... not that I recollect
23. Who on your top 8 are you the closest with? oh gah that's tough... prolly heather, rachel, ashley, and john *and katie when she lets me...hehe*
24.How did you meet number 3? i met her at church when she was in 5th grade and i was in 6th... so cute
25.What is the best memory you have of number 1? well we looked SO forward to that one dance... but we had so so much more fun BEFORE it at my house . we just acted crazy and were the hottest punk rocker chicks/ashlee simpson wannabes EVER!
26. What is one of number 4's best qualities? she has the most AWESOME personailty... she's so super sweet and is always positive. she always makes me feel good about myself
27.Do you live close to 3? yeah... about 1 mile away!
28. What is number 7's favorite food? not a clue
29. Out of your top 8, which one would you say is the funniest? well all of em are funny in different ways, but i really like heather's sense of humor.. it's alot like mine.. random and just sarcastic and silly. john can be pretty durn funny too, tho ;)
30. Who is the most flirtatious? rachel? i d/k.. that's not fair!
31. What do you think of number 8? he's awesome. he makes me feel better when i'm sad (cheesy, i know) and he thinks i'm beautiful not bc of just outward appearance, but he says it's the attitude/personaily too. awe... how sweet. what can i say... if he wasn't, i wouldn't be with him :)
32. How long have you known number 5 for? i'm horrible with time frames, but i'd say about... 3 years ish
33. Which one of your top 8 friends drinks the most or goes out the most? i'm just gonna be safe and say none so i don't offend or exploit anyone... lol
34. Which one of your top 8 friends is the best dresser? i can't choose out of heather, katie, and ashley... i love the way all of them dress, so again, i'm gonna be safe and say john :) he dresses so adorable... haha... i'm such a dork
35. If you could change one thing about number 6, what would it be? that he would realize that he doesn't need to worry about whether people accept him or not... because he really is a nice and cool guy
36. Say something nice about number 1. she's a wonderful friend... i really regret how things started off and how we haven't been as close lately, but i'm hopin that will change soon, because i miss me some ♥heather♥! haha
37. Which one of your top 8 friends lives the farthest away from you? case... :( :( :( times infinity
38. Which one of your top 8 friends do you hang out with the most? probably john
39. Out of your top 8 friends, who is the loudest? I would say either rachel or kelly... but not loud in a bad way.. more of an outgoing way
40. The quietest? i think katie talks the lesat in groups... but no one is really quiet i don't think
41. What is one quality about number 1 that you admire? she's there for me when i need her... and she's gorgeous
42. What kind of car does number 7 have? a jeep :)
43. What is your fondest memory of number 6? hmm.. when he gave me a lei :)
44. Have you traveled anywhere with number 2? um... the furthest would be union city! lol
45. If you gave number 4 $100 dollars tonight, what would they buy? um... shoes or maybe save it? gee i dunno
46. What is number 8's best quality? his eyes
47. Would you kiss number 3? on the cheek maybe lol
48. How did you meet number 7? again through church
49. If you had to buy number 5 a gift, what would you choose to buy them? either some cute socks or something very artsy... she's SO creative
50. Does number 2 drink? only socially
51. How many of your top 8 friends have you actually met? all of them.. i don't usually add people i don't personally know
52. How many of your top 8 have you kissed? well besides kisses on the cheek and light pecks,(haha heather) 2
11月22日 ... my precious cheeseburgerCurrent mood:
it's 1 am... ah... what all happened today in the life of sierra... went to school. boo my phone quit workin. my "maintenence required" light came on in my car. i had to go to the dermatologist (because my mom's been making me and that's why muh face is peeling i decided that every time someone did something nice for me, i was going to repay someone else in that same way. i ate a cheeseburger i accidently bought 4 pairs of shoes. i know, i know...you're thinking how do you "accidently" but 4 pairs of shoes, right? well they weren't expensive shoes or anything... i had only intended on buying one pair... whoops i had absolutely NO chocolate (which can make any day bad) i listened to one year, six months by yellowcard without thinking about a certain someone. i realized i'm seriously not afraid of "that" word anymore. i rather like it. :) found out i have to stay home for thanksgiving because my grandmother's in the hospital :( the gold metallic cowboy boots that i wanted and went back for were twice as much as last time... so i was good and didn't get them :( i've always wanted cowboy boots
this blog has truly, seriously had no point whatsoever. just felt like typing, so thanks for reading... if i don't post again before, then... HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING! gobble gobble
11月17日 ... they call me mellow yellowCurrent mood: feelin blue
hey you guys. i must say i'm feeling a bit down. prolly because i have studied about a total of 6 hours today for an A&P test I have tomorrow. And I'm tryin to finish up my argument paper (which is on beauty pageants) bc the rough draft is due tomorrow for peer review. i'm getting so sick of school. i'm so glad this semester is almost over so i can start taking some different classes. i'll be takin A&P 2, but i don't know what else yet. the class i thought would be my least favorite is in fact my favorite and the one that was my favorite during the frist few classes is now my least favorite. it's funny how things turn out...
i'm also a lil blue about something else... people i used to feel so closed to, i just don't anymore. i guess that's just a part of graduating, but i really just don't like it. these people i really cared about but it's just not recipricated. it stinks to think that people i think of as my really good friends don't hold me in the same regard. oh well, i'm sure it will get better....
it's funny how different the tone of my last blog is so different than this one... what can i say... i'm a girl.
well, hope you guys have a good weekend, heck, i hope i have a good weekend, too... don't know if i'm doin anything, but still... lol. well thanks for "listening". l.o.v.e. , S.i.e.r.r.a.
11月14日 101 random best sellerI am one of the most random people you'll ever meet.
so here are some random thoughts. comments=love!! 1. peaches and cream oatmeal smells SO good 2. some things you can buy generic, but some things just don't. like say cheesy puffs for instance. but on the other hand, the store brand's ranch is better... 3. bob villa never seems to age 4. painting my nails black helps release negative energy when i'm mad or depressed 5. i HEART right align and capitalizing the last letter like thiS 6. no no conditioner is better, it leaves your hair silky and smooth 7. i SUCK at Halo when i'm mad... my cleaning skills are enhanced, though 8. love the smell of gasoline, pvc pipe glue, rubber cement, dog food, & certain someone as you can tell from the # of smell q's, i quite frequently smell things. you should too 9. purple loufa... it's so fun to say. if you think so too give yourself a cookie 10. i wish i could pull off hats 11. my ears are uneven 12. i HATE the feeling i get when it's raining and i'm wearin flip flops 13. i randomly add an "s" to some words for no apparent reason... like laters, or byes... 14. raw food can rock out. spaghetti, ramen and even potatoes will do the trick 15. sometimes my stomach makes noises that sound like a squirrel (i have many ppl who can attest to this. it's not your run of the mill stomach growl) 16. i HATE it when people are only your friends when it's convenient for them 17. i LOVE the fog. it's so beautiful *definitely NOT the movie, btw* 18. chevy chase used to be hot...who knew 19. i just don't get why a huge oversize load vehicle has to have a a car driving in front or behind it announcing it's oversized. if it's an oversize load, then people will see it without the usual dinky little trucking following it. plus calling it oversized probably hurts its feelings. gah 20. i love it when someone tells me i'm funny. i'd rather hear that than i'm pretty ANYday 21. going along w/#16, i can't stand it when you're somebody's wingman bc they don't wanna go somewhere or walk around by theirself, but they wouldn't do the same for you. ugh this happens to me all the time. either that or they end up seein someone else and leavin ya all by your lonesome. i know.... it's a sad world 22. people who don't used their turn signals should shrivel up and rot 23. i HEART the killers and franz ferdinand 24. eyeliner is the best thing since sliced bread 25. i hate it when people disguise gossip in a blog *if you think this is directed at you,it's not* 26. i'd rather you be mean to my face than fake nice to my face. 27. words cannot express how alone i feel at this very moment in time. 28. what's even worse than the way a certain person makes me feel is that that person knows it and does not care. 29. i hate it that people always blame me. 30. all i want is a little empathy,NOT SYMPATHY... if you don't know the dif, look it up. 31. i HATE watching football, but it's kinda sweet when you try to explain it to me :) 32. i love orangE. 33. God keeps all my tears in his bottle... that is SO amazing. and that's one big bottle. 34. i wish i had a best friend that i could just pour out all my feelings to right now... everytime i try to it seems like my friend is uninterested or thinks i'm being selfish by talking about it. 35. i wanna leave this place. 36. there hasn't been a week gone by i haven't cried in my whole life. i wear my emotions on my sleeve. that's a big flaw of mine. 37. i refuse to let you walk all over me anymore 38. i've said this before and i'll say it again... I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE PART TIME FRIENDS and act like they like you but then you hear about how they go off about you or say they can't stand you when they leave the rooom. it's RIDICULOUS. it's sad that i have so many Christian friends like this. it really, truly is. 39. i love shy guys. 40. i love it when certain people tickle me. 41. i hate my feet. 42. i love blue eyes. 44. i wish people would say what they mean and mean what they say. 45. if i did anything right, i'd fall over and die... then that'd be two things. 46. i don't like popcorn. 47. i love how certain people can always tell when something's wrong even when i'm puttin on a front 48. Katie, Heather, Ashley, and Rachel are some of the sweetest people ever. 49. i hate tomatoes, but love ketchup. i hate sour cream, onions, and cheddar, but my fave chips are sour cream and onion chips and sour cream and cheddar chips. ironic. 50. coconut shampoo has got to be one of the greatest smells ever 51. i can unwrap the starburst wrapper with my tongue 52. writing down my feelings may seem like a waste to you, but it really helps me 53. i used to be scared to wear gold. i thought only old women & gypsies wore it. now i'm in love with it 54. To this day, i refuse to fully sit on a toilet bc when i was little my brothers told me if you sat all the way down, it'd suck you in. 55. it's funny how people's msn names can be directed at you sometimes and the person doesn't think it's obvious when it really is. 56. i hate it how i assume so much. 57. i don't fit in in the college group & i'm too old for the youth group. but that's ok with me 58. i can't stand the way i look 59. i LOVE crumbcatchers! haha actually i don't really see what the big deal about them is. 60. milk does a body good, but DANG how much did you drink? 61. I ate dog food when I was little bc my brothers told me if I did they’d give me tickets to the world series. Yup… never got those. 62. i lovE $bling$ 63. i sat on a razor once... all i have to say is OUCH! 64. i once gave a guy a black eye with my hip bone... interesting story..ask if you must 65. i wonder why the fact that i want a tongue ring scares people 66. sometimes people who appear snobby are just shy... 67. i'm workin on my grill, but i'm not sure it'll ever come out :D there how bout that? 68. some people are like slinkies... not really good for anything, but you can't help but smile when they fall down the stairs. 69. if you talk about me, that's fine. i'll still like you, but don't expect me to join in the gossip game. 70. i love you for reading this 71. i may seem naive, but i just choose to ignore the negative things i hear about people... plus it's more fun to talk about their positive :) 72. anything after this point will prolly be streching it bc i'm running out of ideas, but i wanna make it to 101. 73. one thing i cannot stand is inconsistency. 74. i look at you and smile because i'm fine. 75. my cell phone is attracted to toilets 76. Peanut Butter and Jelly were soul mates. they lived happily until Peanut Butter, in a tragic turn of events, decided to leave Jelly for his dance instructor, Salsa. such a sad sad tale... 77. i swear i'm the only person who could manage to accidently stick my hand in a tub of hot sauce, precede to clean it off, causing me to drop my debit card in the trash can, then go on to have gas spill on me... all within a 1 minute time span. GAH 78. when asked to describe me in one word, my friends came up with.. spontaneous, awesome, exciting, unique, bester, flamboyant, cool, hott, slurpees, one of a kind (i know, the person didn't follow the rules), and perky 79. it's probably not a good idea to let your boss catch you sniffing markers at work 80. it drives me crazy when people expect instant gratification 81. my hands are so flippin sore from tryin my hand at blues style piano.. no more tryin to copy bro. steve, sierra 82. i HATE it when guys do things that make you jealous and they think it's no big deal...then we do the same thing and they get jealous and they think they have a good reason and it's somehow "different". i really think jealousy is stupid in the first place, honestly 83. i hate it when people dish, but they can't take 84. man i wish i wasn't so lazy...then i'd be a lawyer 85. after friday night i will never see the Heimlich maneuver the same way again (HAHA KATIE) 86. i hate it when people can't make up their minds *example... people told me to move on and get over a certain something.. and now that i finally have they're mad or frustrated with me* i don't really care anymore. they can all kiss my bum. okay.. i realize that's a bit harsh, but still... we're not in middle school anymore, folks. 87. most of you know i had back surgery and couldn't lift more than 5 pounds and couldn't play sports for six months.. the restrictions came off today! woo hoo. the first thing i did when i got home was do a flip over the couch. BIG fun... oh, now the wrestling match is on. you know who you are! 88. i LOOOOOVE that my restrictions are off, but then again, now i have no excuse to be lazy... hehe. 89. i'm not going to extreme with the youth group. i love tobymac and hawk nelson and all that good stuff, but i've prayed about it and it doesn't feel right for me to. 90. i love vanilla pepsi 91. i love FLAG football.. it's hott 92. i love it when my best friend's little sister emails me and tells me how much she misses seeing me. it's so sweet. 93. when the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future. 94. my nanny is what made thanksgiving thanksgiving and christmas christmas. it's just not the same anymore. 95. it drives me crazy when people don't have their "relationship status" right on myspace 96. c'mon... I wanna dance in the rain. i don't care who you are. Even if you’re a girl! Actually I’d prolly prefer it 97. everytime i decide to go on a diet... i get hungry, then it's over. sierra see the cookie, sierrra eat the cookie. 98. deck the halls, bruise your hands 99. i LOVE feet, but i don't like people messing with mine. if i really REALLY really DOUBLE like you tho, then I just might... 100. contrary to what you may think from reading this blog, there is more positive in my life than negative. sorry i'm a bit of a pickle sometimes. 101. i love people who read ALL of my blog AND then comment. they hold a special place in muh heart
11月8日 please don't love me i'll break your heartplease don't love me i'll break your heart...
Driftwood: A Fairy Tale (cause that's what it is until it ends)
So he would sulk and drink and mope
and cross his arms to die (after all, what else was there?) And then a fairy came one night to bring this sorry boy to life (she was beautiful everywhere, that one) She pulled some strings and spun him about (perfect perfect) The boy sprang up and began to shout "My arms, my legs, my heart (ice it was and remained) my face they're alive!" And she would cry "liar lair" (how I love you so) "What have I done?" (in motion now no stopping) "You're no lover, and I'm no fighter." (what have I done) (The Story Goes On) So he would buy her things and kiss her hair to show he was for real. (He was real) And she would take those gifts and kisses though he was stringing her along. She knew about those wooden boys- its an empty love to fill the void. (this void could suck the world in whole) ""Pinocchio! Oh boy how your nose has grown!" And he would cry, "Liar Liar!!!! I'll prove it to you!" But then it grew he had grown tired of her. (you sang such a sad sad song) So, it was true He left her apartment and walked all night long
'til he was stopped by the shore of the ocean (maybe no one will find me here) But still he walked on, amongst the whales and the waves, and screamed, (oh how he screamed... as if to raise his dead heart and soul he screamed, as if he would make this whole) "LIAR! LIAR!" (why am I such a liar?) and his wooden body floated away. He just drifted away And now I wonder how I was made. And now I wonder why I was made. And now I wonder why was I made? my arms, my legs, my heart, my face, My name is Driftwood (please don't talk to me) if you love me, know, I'll break your heart and that would break my heart please don't love me. 10月31日 just a thought...Sometimes ignoring something gives it too much power. Pretty soon all we can remember is what we were trying to forget… 10月18日 *!Come to muh partY!*Current mood:  excited Category: Parties and Nightlife
Hey you guys... I'm finally turning 19! Saturday is my actual birthday, but my party is gonna be this Friday night, the 21st. It's a double b*day party... For myself and Jacob, who just turned 16! Nothing fancy really, just music, games, food, XBOX, pool, karoke... whatever really. Just wanted to hang out like old times, so here's our chance. It starts at 7... BE THERE or... hurt my feelings... *sniff sniff* lol. Ya'll have a good week! P.S. you can let me know if you're gonna come... that'd rock
oh... and did I mention where it's at? my house. haha that might just help
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restless 
annoyed 
awake 
chipper 
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) and they forgot i had an appointment, so i had to wait even longer than normal... 
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