bizarre
Current mood: sleepy

I had quite an interesting night. I won't go into much detail cause I'm tired but I'll just say a few things...

It involved:

an all girls lock in

(unless you count the cops)

horse poop in a zip loc bag

"you're not taking my baby to jail!"

sporks

Austin's pizza

"I was just cutting roses!"

2 college, 1 high school, and 2 jr. high screaming girls all in one car

frozen cherry pepsi

toenail clippings

said to the cops: "Can you please just act like you're putting us in the trunk for when our youth minister gets here?"

sitting in a circle taking turns saying positive things about each other

freezing rain while after midnight

 

Alright... I'm going to bed. Nite

Current mood: annoyed

wow this weekend was cuh-razy. My parents, Katie, and I went to Nashville to spend the night and go to my brother's wedding shower. I felt really bad for Katie putting up with all of my crazy family. They were even driving me crazy. I had a cold and headache the whole time so I didn't feel so hot and wasn't very entertaining.. and she wasn't too talkative either... so we weren't much of a pair.. haha. The trip itself was extremely boring... I kinda wish I hadn't invited her with me just because I didn't wanna drag somebody down with me... My mom said the trip was gonna be fun but at the end of it we were taping rooms to be painted and I even ended up painting a bit. Soo sorry Katie. I promise next time I go on an awesome, FUN trip, you'll be the one I invite. If anyone like this past one comes along I'll either invite my worst enemy or no one. hahahaha. I'm such a dork. Just felt like writing.. er... typing. I sure hope Katie will forgive me. I like her too much.

*To all a good nite*

diagnosis
Current mood: relieved

...so I found out what was wrong with me today. I'm lacking half a brain!! This completely explains why I'm almost failing A&P II right now. haha.. just kidding (not about the almost failing part ). But seriously though... All it is is that I have some cysts behind my eyes in my sinus cavity. They said they aren't big enough right now to have to have surgery to remove them. But the cysts are what they're saying is causing the severe pain behind my eyes... So at least now I know... Yay.. I've been wondering for almost 3 years now. Huge relief. Hopefully this medicine they give me will reduce their size and all that jazz. Anyways... thanks for your thoughts lately... I was terrified. I'm not going to die!!! haha.

Thanks ya'll!

a day in the life Current mood: worried ah... today has been interesting thus far. It started out with going to the ever wonderful *cough* Martin hospital for a CT scan. Okay.. I guess I should back up since most of you probably have no clue why I was having this to begin with... Well for almost three years now, I've had a pain behind my eyes. They thought glasses might help, so I got glasses. They helped my vision, but not the pain. They told me that after my back got fixed that would help. It didn't. So recently the what I used to call headaches.. have gotten more constant, more painful, and have made me extremely dizzy. So being the smart blonde that I am *yet another cough* I decided to go to the doctor. He couldn't find anything wrong.. I explained my symptoms and he ruled out sinus and tension headaches, migraines and the like. He said he was worried that it had gone on so long and that that made him think it may be something more serious. But just in case, he sent me to the eye doctor. She said there was nothing wrong with my eyes, so it had to be something deeper.. Which led to me getting an appointment to get a CT scan (not cat scan.. don't ask the difference bc I don't know) on my brain/head at 7:30 am this morning. I now know why a communications course is required for people going into the medical field. It seems that some people... like the lady who did the insurance stuff and paperwork... lack what I thought was a basic skill. Obviously it's not. Otherwise the people were really nice, even the lady who did my bloodwork (which me she poked me with a needle). She was like man, you're good with needles! and I was like as long as I don't look at them... but anyways... Even the guy who did my scan was pretty nice... it turned out that he went to Jackson State and did the same program that I'm doing. I think I'd rather do specialized scans than boring old x-rays now that I've thought about it... or maybe both. Radiography @ JSCC is such a widespread degree that I'll have more than choice of jobs, unlike most technical programs.. so that's nice. But anyways... They did about 4 scans and then they injected me with some contrast fluid *ouch* and did another one. Needless to say,  I'm tired of being poked. We won't find anything out until tomorrow. I'm kinda of worried and scared. I hope it's something silly... It probably is then I'll feel silly for wirrying... I hope so. Well anyways... Thanks once again for listening to me ramble. I'll update when I find something out. Byes! Currently watching: Corpse Bride

Current mood: contemplative

i realize this is a little late, but i have quite a few new year's resolutions. actually i guess it's not ever too late for improvement.

to be more organized with school this semester. so sick of late night cramming only resulting in me not doing the best of my ability.

to listen more than i speak. after all we have two ears and one mouth... that ought to tell us something.

be healthier. i take in way too many soft drinks and tons of fast food. what can i say... i'm a college student.

befriend someone that is not considered the ideal person to befriend. i'm actually already pretty good about this, but like i said... always room for improvement.

wear what i want.

not let petty things people who think they know me hurt my feelings. after all God made me the way i am for a reason.

not treat my parents like an annoyance. i love my parents, but as with all parents, they get under my skin sometimes and i can get kinda disrespectful at times. that needs to stop...they've done and still do so much for me.

go on a mission trip.

stop the eye rolling. i am really horrible about this. you don't have to be around me long to figure out that my facial expressions are quite... vivid and expressive. the eye rolling has become an aweful habit and i need to stop. i hadn't really thought about it until one of my friends did it to me when they thought i wasn't looking a few weeks ago. it kinda hurt my feelings and i was like wait a minute.. i do that a lot. so yeah... that definitely needs to stop.

accept God's will for my life this year even if it's not what i want or what i think i need.

let people know how much i care for them before it's too late.

not care what people think unless it is something that really is of importance.

BE MORE POSITIVE. enough said.

 

i know i'll think of a million more, but this is what i have for now. thanks once again for tuning in.  STAY CLASSY! heh

Currently listening: Start Static By Sugarcult Release date: By 06 December, 2005

got my defenses when it comes to your intentions for me Current mood: disappointed i keep hurting people... i don't know why i keep putting myself in a position to hurt them. maybe this time i will learn. i could always use some prayer... Currently listening: Another Journal Entry By BarlowGirl Release date

My quirkiness seems to be increasing….

There is this “older gentleman” at work with his front teeth missing. I found myself thinking this morning that he pulls it off quite nicely.

For some reason lately I’ve been pulling my hair into a ponytail everyday, which is weird cause I always wear it down.

A “little birdie” in New York told me not to worry about some stuff my friends/“friends” (who the heck knows which one)  were saying about me. Good advice, and I intend to do so.

My coworker told me today they all think I’m the sweet, innocent type. Heh.

once again i will say... I LOVE CHRISTMAStime.

 

DO YOU
:x: wish you could live somewhere else: yes. anyone who really knows me knows i hate it here.
:x: think about suicide: not gonna say i haven't, but i don't now and never again
:x: believe in online dating: yup.. my cousin met her hubby that way. they're perfect together
:x: think others find you attractive: some
:x: want more piercings: one more in my ear and my tongue
:x: like cleaning: nope
:x: like roller coasters: heck yes
:x: write in cursive or print:print unless i'm dooodling
LAST
:x: last talked to: michael in person.. case on my cell
:x: last thought of: how ironic things can be...
:x: last showered: the day before yesterday.. no worries.. i took a bath last night
:x: last cut your nails: i just bite them.. i had stopped there for over a week, but then got stressed out...
:x: last hugged a tree: bout a month ago.
:x: last watched anime: does pokemon count?
:x: last prayed: last night

FOR OR AGAINST
:x: long distant relationships: they can work, but not for me.. i don't think it's worth it usually
:x: killing people: usually against, but i do believe in the death penalty and war when it's needed
:x: teenage smoking: against but hey it's your body
:x: gay/lesbian relationships: against
:x: soap operas: don't care.

HAVE YOU
:x: ever cried over a boy: of course, what girl hasn't
:x: ever been in a fist fight: that's a negative
:x: ever been arrested: not yet, although i did have a dream i got arrested for putting flip flops on a john kerry sign
:x: ever had a friend die: yes...
:x: ever dated a cousin: ewe. no
:x: ever used a gun: yup
:x: ever finished a puzzle: yup
:x: ever got surgery: back surgery :(
:x: ever got beat up: nope
:x: ever hated someone: disliked greatly, but not hated
:x: ever made a huge mistake: of course
:x: ever tried any drugs: nah
:x: ever jogged a mile: many of times
:x: ever played w/ someones feelings: yes. not on purpose tho
:x: ever had feelings for someone younger than you?: oh yes..

WHAT
:x: shoes do you wear: imy new faves are pink and silver :)
:x: are you scared of: snakes, SPIDERS! (ack.. lakehouse), small space, and dissappointing God and my parents
:x: do you sleep in: pj pants and a tank top
:x: did you eat for lunch: nothing.. yet :(
:x: is love: honestly i couldn't tell you

NUMBER
:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: once
:x: of hearts I have broken?: um.. 2 maybe but i don't think it's that serious
:x: of guys/girls I have kissed?: none ya business
:x: of guys/girls you've rejected?: i have a problem giving rejection, so not many..
:x: of drugs you taken: 0
:x: of accidents you been in: 3 i think
:x: of people you lean on?: well i've learned you can't just lean on anyone.. some people will use it against you later... thus very few. prolly 3 or 4 tops
:x: of people you broke up with?: um... 3 not counting guys i was just dating.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
:x: pretty: no
:x: funny: in a cheesy kinda way..
:x: hott: no
:x: friendly: definitely. i often find myself talking to people no one else wants to talk to.
:x: ugly: yes
:x: loveable: can be
:x: caring: yes.. one of the best things is that i always try to empathize BOTH sides no matter what
:x: dorky: always.. that's my personality
:x: cocky: no considering i don't like myself
:x: girly: not overly
:x: boyish: can be.. i like to hunt, fish, and play halo
:x: smart: no
:x: pimp:. all over the world baby. ha nah.
:x: angel: no
:x: gangster: ahem.. it's gangSTA

FAVORITE
:x: FOUR letter word:
:x: candy: sour twizzlers
:x: cartoon: hey arnold
:x: cereal: i don't eat cereal
:x: chewing gum: peppermint trident white
:x: day of week: Friday or sometimes Saturday
:x: least favorite day: weds
:x: jello flavor: don't like it
:x: summer/winter: summer
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: i prefer to jump off the roof onto the trampoline and bounce into the pool.. haha... pool i guess

LAST PERSON WHO/THAT
:x: slept in your bed: um... emily i think
:x: saw you cry: my mom yesterday
:x: made you cry: i'm not gonna cause controversy and say it
:x: you went to the movies with: ummmm john
:x: yelled at you: haven't been yelled at in a while but prolly my mom
:x: sent you an email: besides junk mail, steven malin

HAVE YOU EVER
:x: said "i love you" and meant it?: yes
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: of course
:x: kept a secret from everyone?: yes..i do it quite often
:x: cried during a movie?: of course.. the last few were sisterhood of the traveling pants and i teared up last night in the excorcism of emily rose.. hehe
:x: ever, at anytime, owned new kids on the block?: yup.. had the tape :)
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: nah... i record everything then watch it later without the commercials so it doesn't take up as much time.
:x: been on stage?: yes
:x: been to New York? No..but i will!
:x: been to California?: yes... LOVED it
:x: been to Florida?: yup
:x: Hawaii?: yes.. it's beautiful *but cancun's better*
:x: China?: that's a no
:x: Canada?: nah but that'd be awesome
:x: Europe?: i wish!
:x: Australia?: nope
:x: what time is it now?: 11:17
:x: apples or bananas?: granny smith apples are the bomb, otherwise neither
:x: blue or red?: blue
:x: walmart or target?: Target all the way, but i'd be broke if we had one here
:x: spring or fall?: fall
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this? go to lunch :)
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: um.... chicken noodle soup yesterday
:x: are you bored?: why else wouldi be doing this?
:x: last noise you heard?: fox news and the annoying switchboard ringing in my ear
:x: last smell you sniffed?: my apple cider.. i made some but it was too weak, so i just kept it here to smell it
:x: last time you went out of state/province?: um... tuesday i went to paducah
:x: last car ride: my scion on the way to work (which happens to be across the street)

FRIENDSHIP/LOVE
:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: in a way, but not usually
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: yes... 3... 2 boys and 1 girl
:x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: the right amount of honesty (when i say that i mean you should be tactful sometimes)  and trust. it's amazing how many relationships lack those key things

RANDOM STUFF
:x: criminal record?: nada
:x: do you speak any other languages?: sign languauge and SLIGHT french, spanish, and latin
:x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? my pictures, my purple wall, and my bedspread
:x: piercings and where?: 4 in my ear
:x: worst feeling in the world?: the one i felt yesterday. and a few other ones i can't share
:x: whom do you love: my family and muh friends

YOUR
:x: nickname(s): Si, cheekah, pink, c-mo, baby mo and some other things i'm not allowed to say. heh
:x: initials: SJM
:x: how old do you look?: i'm 19, but i think i look about 17 or maybe 18.. someone asked not to long ago if i was 13
:x: how old do you act?: haha... at times i can be immature, but usually like any other college age student
:x: glasses/contacts?: glasses that i'm supposed to wear all the time but i don't
:x: braces: nope
:x: do you have any pets?: not unless you count dewey's
:x: you get embarrassed?: yeah
:x: what upsets you?: i get my feelings hurt WAY too easily, so almost anything

SCHOOL
:x: favorite subject- probably english now since it's the only A i got this semester
:x: worst subject- i hate math
:x: what do you like most about it- its the biggest college in jackson, but it's still quite small... my biggest class had about 50 ppl and my smallest had 8
:x: whats the name of the school- Jackson State
:x: whats the school mascot- haha i had to look... generals
:x: school colors- green and yellow
:x: how long has it been a school- I dont really know
:x: are you popular there- it's college... things are slightly dif, but i know quite a few people
:x: are there a lot of hot people- haha.. i wouldn't know
:x: whos your favorite teacher- mr bailey :)
:x: least favorite- mrs theus HANDS DOWN
:x: what time does the school end and start- about 8-1 last semester

LAST THING YOU
:x: bought- rented exorcism of emily rose
:x: wore- green sweater and jeans
:x: ate- ummmm... some puppy chow last night (FYI it's not really dog food it's something my mom makes)
:x: drank- apple cider, but i made it too weak so it was no good
:x: smelled- we've been through this..my cider
:x: touched- yeyboard
:x: saw- the screen
:x: watched- fox news.. blech
:x: yelled at- probably jake.. sorry pal
:x: stole- i don't steal
:x: took a picture of- myself listening to the nano :)

LAST
:x: played- the piano
:x: wrote- "big spoon for welding" on my work's wal mart list
:x: typed- this
:x: read- this that lisa wrote...
:x: made fun of- my brother
:x: pissed on- umm.. none but i've had a few ppl do it to me lately...
:x: did on the computer- this survey

LOVE LIFE
:x: who was your last/current boyfriend/girlfriend: john's muh far away boyfriend
:x: who was the last boy/girl you kissed: um.. duh
:x: who was the last boy/girl you hugged: my daddy good night last night
:x:how long have you been with your boyfriend/girlfriend: about a month
:x:how long have you liked this person: well i had always had a crush on him kinda...
:x: what is your best memory with this person: hmmm... prolly our fight with my num chucks in my room while we were watching that movie.. haha

Currently listening: The Silence in Black and White By Hawthorne Heights Release date: By 08 June, 2004

 

 

 

my world and other random thoughts ...

Currently listening: I Wish We All Could Win By The Afters Release date: By 22 February, 2005

Current mood: sympathetic
Category: Blogging

Sometimes I feel like I'm on survivor. The people get on the island and they all get along at first, but then things go wrong and paranoia sets in. Suddenly everyone thinks that every whispered conversation is about them and that they're about to be voted out. This is how I feel sometimes. I get extremely confused over if things that are said (or wrote) are actually about me, or if it's just exactly that... paranoia. While I get along with most people, some people just seem to not want to give me a chance or the benefit of the doubt. There's certainly people I'd rather be around more than other people, but this doesn't mean that I should be mean or rude to the people who's company I'd less prefer. I've noticed a lot of people around me don't like to be around certain people, so they think that's a good excuse to treat them like they're stupid or beneath them... well that's not a good excuse. In fact, there's never a good excuse for that. Plus, that's based on an opinion.... Some people may actually love that person's company. I hate it when one person in a clique doesn't like one person and then the rest of the people in that clique think they can't like that person either just because the other person didn't. I mean c'mon. How silly is that? What happened to thinking for yourself... being an individual... anti-conformity. Those are beautiful things... not everyone else in the world can have those things. I was really surprised when I got to college and people still acted like this. People in college are supposed to be more mature.. ha ha. Nothing is ever as it appears at first, I don't guess.

I hate it when people mistake niceness for two-facedness (haha i don't think that's a word). There are people that truly get on my nerves, but I'm nice to them anyways because that is what I'm supposed to do. But I do not think this qualifies as being two-faced at all. After all, it's MY fault that they get on my nerves because I let it get to me when my emotions are something I should have control over. But talking about someone does bring it to the next level and definitely could be called being two-faced... just make sure not to confuse the two.

Katie.. just in case you were wondering, this isn't about you at all... your blog just sparked my thinking and I had to write about it.

Well I'll stop rambling now... I'm actually in quite a good mood... hope you (whoever you are who is reading this) have a good day!

Currently listening: One for the Kids By Yellowcard Release date: By 09 December, 2003

Current mood: annoyed

i'm in somewhat of a bad mood. i just looked at my final grades and my GPA for this semester is 3.23. I know that's not that bad, but my computer teacher is a moron. It's the one who accused me of cheating on an ONLINE Excel Test. I'm not going there... But anyways... she left off some grades like I didn't turn in some projects or something and it lowered my grade from an A to a B. They were turned in.. and on time, so I'm extremely annoyed. So I tried to email her to fix things, but her email address isn't working... I keep getting failure of delivery notices. So I guess there's nothing I can do except to take a grade lower than I deserve. That really sucks and it's gonna bug the crap out of me. grrr... I'm just in a bad mood now. Everyone is seeming to annoy me and I'm at work and the phone won't stop ringing... I need help!!! Sorry to complain... just needed to get it all out... maybe I'll write a "happy blog" later... maybe